07 June 2005 ; 7:47 PM
lalalalla.....
lots of things hab happen lately and most of dem are bad... haiz... y my life so crappy man!!! haiz... rite now very empty... i hab lost all emotions... i m now emotionless... haiz... dunnoe wat i wanna do now... i m now tokin abt my sch work... sch wise i m gettin on quite fine....
my social life reali sucks a lot... tot of gonna to quit smoking... den i dunnoe wat to say... LOL... srry hf i did not follow the promise... it is not becoze wantu or wat... it is juz very hard to explain... it is also not abt whether i m addicated to it a not... which i can safely say no... although i m diein soon... as wat all my non smokers frene say... 1 stick takes away 10 mins of ur life... haha... reali damn sick of my life... dun understand y so sucky man... haiz... although i got my best frenes by my side... i still cannot take it... maybe i shld one day juz go to the highest floor of my flat and juz jump down...
haiz... can anyone gib me the rite advice... i m reali lost! living a lost life now... sometimes i also suspect does my frenes reali lyk me... or are they juz puttin a false front in front of me... i tink tt i m irritatin everybody in my life and they are getting bored of me and such.... my love life sux too... i don understand y ugly guys can get gf which are not bad looking... but not me... i m not sayin i m very handsome or wat... i don feel tt i m handsome... i m juz normal lookin... and i cannot get any... haha... juz feeling jealous of those ppl at the moment...
now to change the subj... i cannot stand tis fucker in my class think he is a very good sportsman and act noe it all.. worse he tinks he is the leader among his own frene grp... LOL... he is not... today juz act pia kia in front of teacher... when he is wearin very toot toot... wear the socks until so high... pants and shirt all tis needless to say... i reali feel lyk beatin him up... not onli me... me and my other frenes too... one of these days he sure kanna gangbang... haha... wat m i sayin all tis 4...
1st time write so much... haiz... maybe lately alot of things hab gotten in to my mind lately...
;devoided of all emotions